dropping by

haha haven't blogged for ages.. im back! to temporarily sweep some cobwebs off..haha tis long absence may be a good thing cuz it means tht less people will be reading and i wldnt need to feel so restrained with wad i write, not tht im planning to offend anybody but yuppers i still tink i can breathe easier with less people reading tis bunch of bullshit.
anyway life has been fun since enlistment...yeah right
haha life inside de army is so deja vu.
even tho i hafta call them sergeant and sir, i wore the uniform for much longer than most of them chao nsfs. for officers is realli respect for making it thru ocs, but some of the sergeants really do not deserve their rank sia. but nvm la jus Suffer In Silence Plus Extra Confinement. lol.
but its seriously tiring cuz ive been doing all this damned shit for so long. this is de 7th yr to be exact. even an army scholarship holder would have finished serving his bond. and now im back to the status of a chao recruit. not tht i mind being the lowest lifeform. but some of those people up there reli dun derserve to be up there. even the fat shit of a storeman demand we greet him. ask him go eat shit and die pls.
and for the first time in my 18+ years, i actually missed home. shit man i cant believe wad army is doing to me, and everybody else. the one good thing tht army has done is to make us realise the importance of family and realise not to take our life outside for granted. now that they ration our time in the civilian world to arnd 96 hours a month, which is 4 days in case u r wondering, we make full use of every minute and try to cram everything into those measly 4 days. we sleep damn little, catch up with frens and family members as much as possible, and try to take in more urban air. when u r inside u r constantly reminded tht u r a soldier so act like one cuz u r no longer a civilian. its thru these little things tht you realise how much you have taken your life outside for granted. the laissez faire approach to doing things.wad u thought wad a normal human being's privilege is now actually a luxury, and more often than not, a luxury tht cannot be enjoyed because one is in the army.
hmm enough about army.. everythings in a mess now cant even type wad i wanna blog properly...thousand and one things running thru my head...should i? should i not? is there enough time? im really running out of ideas, and options. not tht i had much to start with. the ideas i meant. the options i chose sit and wait and see the wide spectrum diminish to a faint glow. hmm nvm..

far far away in the south china sea,
i left a girl with tears in her eyes.
for i have to go,
where brave men die......